Oh, hello 2016!


It’s January 8th already…..where did 2015 go? Wait! What happened? Actually, “what happened?” is a very good question. The year of 2015 was a year of ups and downs for many of us, and I suppose every single year it is the same, and 2016 will be no different. But last year was a particularly remarkable one for me. My 2015 started with a roller coaster plummeting down and skyrocketing at the end. This month marks one-year anniversary (would like to celebrate!) since I was diagnosed with stage IIIc ovarian cancer. Precisely a year ago, I thought this is it, the game is over. To describe how I felt the first three months after the diagnosis would be a hard job for me but I will try. I wanted to scream that it’s unfair, it’s impossible, it can’t be happening to me, me who just found true love and moved to London to start a new chapter of life, this wasn’t the plan, it just can’t possibly be happening to me and most importantly to people close to me. There was a lot of fear, despair, and rivers of tears. I wasn’t scared of pain nor was I scared of death, but I was just sad, deeply sad that I will make my husband utterly unhappy by leaving too early, sad that I won’t be able to see our future kids, sad to upset everyone who loves me and who I love back even more. And as I type these words I have a choking ball in my throat battling with my emotions. All these people who I thought I will upset stood strong by me and showed me that the game is not over yet and that I have the power to move mountains. I heard people say that I am strong, but the truth is that I had no choice, no choice to be weak. So, I faced my fears and set new challenges and this is what I have done in 2015:

  • Read more than 10 books on nutrition and cancer
  • Changed my diet overnight
  • Finished 6 cycles of chemotherapy with no severe side effects
  • Opted out of debunking surgery that would have left me a half woman
  • Had good blood results for the past 12 months and no signs of reoccurrence
  • Started to write this blog
  • Married to my best friend and love of my life Stuart in Turkey (no, he is not Turkish, Turkey is just a beautiful country)
  • Ran half-marathon in Nice raising 1600 pounds for ovarian cancer charity
  • Finished reading “Crime and Punishment” – was on my list far too long
  • Travelled more in one year than in my entire life: Netherlands, Turkey, Russia, Scotland, France, Iceland, Germany, and
  • Found beauty in little things

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Now, in the first week of New Year, the web flooded with New Year resolutions, everyone is making lists and excited about the endless possibilities of this year. I think setting goals at the beginning of the year is a good strategy to focus your attention on what you want to achieve, but don’t be too hard on yourself if something doesn’t work out, just make sure you stay attuned and refocus if necessary. My mantra for 2016 is to know the outcome and to take immediate action to achieve it. And here is what I am aiming for this year:

  • Work more on my blog
  • Start French classes
  • Continue my exploration of art
  • Read “War and Peace”
  • Practice yoga everyday
  • Try new fitness programs (zumba blew my mind away the other day!!!)
  • Be as fit and as healthy as I can possible be
  • Be more balanced and grounded
  • Praise myself more often
  • Practice gratitude
  • Become vegan with minor exceptions (I’m doing good so far)
  • Create meaningful relationships and create new friendships in London
  • Spend more time with my family
  • Move house (super excited about this one!)
  • Get a beagle (double excited!)

I hope you wrote down your lists and ready to cross things out, as my friend once said it is very therapeutic. What do you want to achieve this year? I would love to hear!








  1. Ekaterina says

    Моя дорогая Девочка! Так хорошо все написала! Ты молодец! Желаю тебе всех всех благ в новом году! Счастья вашей паре и полной чаши в вашем доме! Пусть весть твой лист деланий и поставленных задач осуществится! Как будешь в Москве, не забудь сообщить! ?

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